A Day In The Life

I know it is only a season and seasons change. I try so hard not to be a grumbler yet here I am. It was only a week ago I  was weighted down by the burden of replacing ill caregivers and once again the load is heavy.

Brooke was sick this weekend. She was able to get me up and ready for the day so I could work as planned. She rested and slept on the couch to allow her the ability to take me to a community event that evening which I am most grateful.

Sunday morning she was not feeling well enough for church. After missing three weeks in a row I was disappointed to say the least. Remaining with me during church is a required task of my caregivers. It is necessary that they are there to assist me during the hour and especially on Communion Sunday as was yesterday.

Should I allow the unfortunate circumstances of others to once again rob me of something I enjoy or do I move forward and on to church ? That was the question I asked myself yesterday morning. I don't want to be inconsiderate and unaware of others. I allowed Brooke to drop me off as she requested. After church I worked all day and in between calls worked to secure someone to cover Brooke's Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday evening shifts as she requested off. She was able to sleep comfortably on the couch until time to get my supper and put me to bed.

This morning rolls around and Keely and her daughter are sick. She is able to come in and get me up but unable to provide my morning shower. Unsure she will be able to work tomorrow, I try to line up a backup by messaging my sister. Sounds promising doesn't it? She responded back and she has an appointment in the morning and cannot be of assistance.

I try hard not to become discouraged and I am thankful for those who can help out and I wish good health for others. During these seasons I feel controlled by the circumstances of others. An interruption in my care plan causes me to feel controlled by the circumstances of not only one person but many. My first priority is getting out/in bed, food, work and/or commitments. Personal hygiene,laundry,household chores,errands ,and appointments are compromised.

I want to be  humble  and not a self-centered person.  I want to be focused on what I can do for others instead of who and what others can do for me. Complaining and grumbling compromise joy so I will press on knowing and trusting what God's word tells me. He will never leave me nor forsake me. The plans He has for me are for good and not evil. In Him I am a victor and not a victim. This too shall pass. I ask God to bless Brooke and Keely and to restore their bodies to good health.